Last week I met this great guy, Marv. He's really good looking and has a great personality to match. On Sunday, I came back home to my parent's house in Leeds, and I can't wait to go back to see Marv.
I came out to my Mum on Sunday night, when I arrived back in Leeds. Said said she was fine with it, but for some reason I get the feeling she's not. Things have been really weird since. I don't know how to explain it, it's just... Weird. I always feel trapped when I'm back here, like I lose all the freedom I have at uni. And so... Instead of going back to Stoke on the 4th of April like I planned, I'm going this Friday or Saturday. I don't think I could cope the whole time I was supposed to be here... So going back earlier is probably the best option.
I think one of the problems being at home this time is I left my anti-depressants back in Stoke, by accident, and it seems to have made my mood drop considerably. That said, I just feel really uncomfortable here right now, so going back is best.
The only problem with this plan is that I don't want to alienate myself from my family, if that happens, then I wont have a home any more. But, if I keep feeling like this every time I come here, then I can't keep coming back, as much as a love my family, I don't get along with them.
Marv has said he'd help me, which is great, so I guess I'll just have to see how the rest of this week goes before I go back before I decide what to do for the summer holidays when I finish Uni.
Update you all later.
xxx