It all seems rather pointless at the moment... What can I say? Once again, I feel like crap. I know exactly what got me in this mood, yet there's nothing I can do to stop it in the future.
You know when you like someone? And I mean REALLY like... yet, you know that it's never going to happen? I know... depressing isn't it? Welcome to my world. The funny thing is... If I actually had anyone to talk to, then it wouldn't be so bad, but since my "friends" (and I use the term "friends" VERY loosely) seem to have all abandoned me, it's not so great right now. They only bother if I'm actually within sight, otherwise I seem to get the feeling it's "Out of sight, out of mind". Now, if I think about this a little more objectively, then I still reach the same conclusion. In any relationship, be it with a love interest, family or friends, it all has to work in a "give and take" way. Sadly, I seem to be giving and not taking anything. The "friends" seem to reap all the benefits of my friendship, yet I don't seem to get anything back. I think it's about time I became a little more assertive and sorted them out. So here's what I do, over the course of the next few days, I'll have a little "chat" with each one in turn. See what they have to say, and if I feel the same way as I do now about it, they're gone. Ruthless? Very, but how else am I supposed to protect myself against them? I can't be doing with these two-faced bitches who seem to think it's ok to insult someone behind their back and then be all nicey-nice to their face. One thing they always forget is, I know a lot of people (more acquaintances than friends) and I always seem to hear the "he said she said" rubbish. Well now, they're going to have to face the music, if they don't like what I have to say, then tough, cos' I'm going to say it anyway.
As you can tell... a rather upbeat mood (can you tell I'm being sarcastic?)
Just to finish on a good note. I finished both my essays now. Just need to wait until uni opens in a few hours so I can go hand them in. 
Thought of the day:
When do things start to get better?